My conflicted visions

  For the past several months I have seen fast moving objects or beings either in my home or in public.  The beings or objects aren't there long enough for me to make an attempt at identifying or recognizing them.  I saw two today in the parking lot next door.  I looked out of my apartment window while showering and noticed from three floors up what appeared to be a white man walking in the lot.  Not even 2 minutes later another being walked by in the same fashion.  Each time as I looked out of the window there wasn't a person or animal in sight.  The other day while in my shrine room I noticed a dark shadow dart out from behind my shrine to Yeye Osun a fled or hide behind my memorabilia chest.  I dared not move the chest to explore...not out of fear but of respect.  If it hide that means it didn't wanna be seen.

  I have had these visions since I was a child yet never wanted to talk to anyone about it due to fear of ridicule.  I know many people who have had similar if not the same experiences.  Iyalase' Aina Olomo cover's this subject in her book "The Core of Fire, A Path to Yoruba Spiritual Activism".  From my understanding Iya wrote about the shadows we see in our dreams and how they are products of our negative behavior.  Iya Olomo writes, "These underdeveloped energies will often attempt to lure us into making decisions that conflict with our spiritual intent.  The fleeting shadows that weave in and out of our conscious range have not consolidated.  Their form does not have enough mass for us to see them clearly and distinctly.  It is also possible that we do not see them distinctly because the vision of our conscious mind has not expanded its own development to be able to experience more than one reality at a time.  It is important to understand that we generate negative energies when we engage in behavior patterns that do not promote character development or that do not coincide with the accepted behavioral standards established by our ancestors and divinities.  These negative energies can manifest as symbols in our dreams as they penetrate the limits of our conscious mind, whether they are positive or negative, they expand our awareness."  Now my problem here is that I wasn't dreaming, I've been wide awake.

  As I stated earlier I know a few people who have experienced or are currently experiencing similar visions. Simply for the sake of assumption none of this is under the influence of any mind altering substances besides maybe a little adrenaline.   Have you ever experienced similar visions?  I don't know what it means, but I'm open to explanations.  It may be time for another reading.  I know one thing is fa'sho, my mind ain't playin' tricks on me.

O dabo